My son lives about an hours plane ride from home. He shares a room with another college student from England. One night, after 10:00PM, he called me and cried over the phone, “Mom, I am feeling so sad right now.” I was so worried and asked what was bothering him. He said, “I have everything I need. I have good grades, good food and I have friends but somehow I still feel sad.” I asked him if he liked what he was studying. I told him not to stress himself out, not to go after money but to go for what he wants to do to be happy. I asked him if he wanted to move back home and go to a local college. He immediately said, “No!” I regretted so much that I asked him this. I love him and just wanted to be close to him. Every time I bring up the topic of attending a local school, he gets upset. Then he said, “You don’t understand me, Mom.” That really broke my heart. I felt so hopeless– I just didn’t know what to do. I felt like there was a big wall between my son and myself. I couldn’t reach him and he can’t reach me either.
My mind was so full of negative thoughts. What was in my son’s mind? He might harm himself. It was dark outside. I felt that my son was under an attack. I knelt down on the floor and prayed to God to save him. When I got tired, I went in bed and kept praying until I fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning and God shined His light on me. I think my son was sad because there was an emptiness in his heart. Only God can fill up his heart with peace, joy, hope and love. Only in God, he can be satisfied. I prayer walked around my neighborhood and prayed that God would have mercy on my son; that He would bless him with His peace, joy and hope; that He would bless him with an opportunity to know God’s love and His protection.
I also met with a sister at church to pray for my son and myself. I confessed my sins to God so that I could be set free. I broke down in tears because I had peace with me but my son didn’t. I prayed to God for my son’s salvation.
Over the next couple of days, I continued to prayer walk in the mornings and in the afternoons. I then called to check on my son and he was doing better! He started to play basketball and kept himself busy with other activities. God answered my prayers and lifted up my son’s spirit. Life is up and down but God is always with us to love and protect us.
“Thank you, God, for saving my son. I love you so much!”