A daughter’s prayer to her Abba
By Barbara Chu
When I first gave my life to Jesus over 14 years ago, I made a decision to serve and love Him. I was determined to serve God overseas in missions work. I went on several short term mission and vision trips, took courses to prepare myself and prayed and sought God for direction. On one of these trips, God spoke to me and said, “Not now, your heart is not ready. There are still many things for you to learn and see here.” I struggled with God and with people after hearing this message. I felt my dreams were shattered and then started on a downward fall from God. I started seeking my own desires thinking they were from God. I told myself, “OK, I am not ready, I will trust God to prepare me in the meantime and I will stay here in SF and find a ministry and church to serve.” I found a church that was just planted in SF and started being a part of that community, but I sinned and judged the people. In the end, I left betrayed and violated emotionally by them. I then fell into deep depression after this situation and didn’t attend church for 5 years. Read more →